Everything just seemed to be so wrong, something's defintely NOT RIGHT.

I just don't feel like myself ,
I feel that I'm somebody else .
The old me is no longer existing anymore ,
what should I do ?
I need someone to guide me along ,
I need someone to save me out from all these torturings !
I'm sick & tired of all these things ,
I want everything to stop !
Enough of all these stupid things ,
I really had enough .
I want everything to change back to the past ,
if only time could rewind .
I don't want all these to happen at all !
I don't want you to suffer with me ,
I don't want you to lead an incomplete life because of me .
All I want is just you to stay happy ,
no matter what happens to me .
I don't need you to suffer the pain with me ,
one person getting hurt ,
is better than both of us getting hurt .
I tried to hide my feelings inside ,
but I can't .
I knew that you will know everything sooner or later ,
so is it better to spit it all out ?
Or is it better to keep it all inside ?
I'm lost , I really don't know what to do !
Can anyone tell me what to do ?
I tried to cry my heart out ,
but I can't .
I'm feeling very terrible ,
indeed . VERY TERRIBLE ! ):
Thanks people like Jermine darling who cheered me up ,
and gave me comments on what I should do .
But I don't want all of you to worry for me ,
I'll be alright someday .
I really appreciated all of your comments ,
thanks for being by my side whenever I need you all .
I tried to avoid you ,
I'm afraid that I'll break down & cry in front of you .
I told myself not to shed tears for you anymore ,
but I just failed to do it !
I just can't stop myself from crying ,
tears just kept rolling down .
I cried myself to sleep every night ,
just because of all these things .
I kept it from you ,
because I don't want you to suffer the pain with me .
I know that you wouldn't listen to me ,
so I might as well keep everything to myself !
You just seemed not to care at all ,
or perhaps you didn't even try to understand how am I feeling ?
Do you ever spare a thought for me ?!
You're always like that ,
I'll push all the blame to me to avoid ending everything early .
I want to have beautiful memories with you ,
but can I ?
I just wanna lead a simple & pure relationship with you ,
not with so much worries & pain !
Everything just seemed to be so wrong ,
something's definitely NOT RIGHT .
I wanna solve all these problems asap ,
and YES , all by myself !
I don't need you to solve my problems with me ,
I will overcome everything all by myself .
I understand how you feel ,
but you will never suffer as much as me .
I almost slit my wrist all because of you ,
if only Jermine didn't asked me to watch out for the penknife ,
I would had take it and just slit my wrist just like that .
I hope that everything will go smoothly for the next few days ,
I don't want all these things to happen within us anymore .
Your words just can't solve everything ,
prove it to me if you can .
I want our love to last long ,
sorry if I've hurt you so many times .
Sometimes I just can't control my words and emotions ,
give me time to change could you ?
I need time to learn to love ,
to learn to cherish and to care for you .
I want beautiful memories to remained as our love goes on ,
let bygones be bygones .
I'll try to forget everything that had hurt both of us ,
just having trust in me is enough ,
I don't ask for more .
I only want you to love me as much as I do ,
and try to understand me more .
I don't wanna get hurt because of you ,
so sick of everything .

I'll reply tags the next time ,
I've no mood .
Bye everyone !